Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? (Matthew 6:25-27).
First off, I want to say Thank You, for all words of encouragement, since I did the Blog post on “Why Not Me.” Your kindness speaks volumes, and to say that it’s helping you view things differently also.
Praise be to God Almighty Friends!!!
It’s Amazing how my Blog has grown, but I want to make something very clear. It is only by God’s Grace, that it is what it is. It has NOTHING to do with Angie. I’m just a willing body, wanting to obey God, share the Love of Jesus Christ, and help encourage others.
I have had many questions from others, wanting to know, what the next steps will be, concerning my foot. I did have my MRI this past Thursday 21st. It stated that I have an area of moderate enhancement, that covers approximately 18mm. There is also a 2.8 cm long and 5mm deep area, that signals heterogeneous enhancement.
Now don’t ask me what any of that technical stuff means, cause this little hillbilly from Kentucky, hasn’t the slightest idea. I just put what the report said. I wanted to sound smart ya know.
All I know at this point, is what the report said. It is unknown and unspecific what this tissue growth is. My Dr has already told me my next step, would be having a biopsy done. I’m hoping to hear from her Monday 25th, when that will take place.
I am NOT going to say, that I’m looking forward, to having that done, because that would be a BIG FAT LIE! Just the thoughts of it, is making me cringe. The Chemo injections hurt FIERCELY, and I was told that was a piece of cake in comparison.
I vote to be knocked out completely, but I don’t think they will do that
I suppose I will have both legs locked down, be biting down on something to keep from screaming, and I will be gripping the table, with all the strength that’s in me. That’s what I had to do with the injections.
I am NOT big on taking pain medications, or something to help me relax, but I think this time, I will be asking. For some reason I am extremely nervous about this procedure. I am NOT gonna give you a half truth. I am human and I think I’d been better off, if the Dr hadn’t prepared me about it first.
Once the results are back from the biopsy, they’ll know what they’re dealing with, and how to treat it from there. I will admit that this whole situation is kinda scary. I work in Oncology, and to hear the word “Biopsy” can be somewhat intimidating. Especially when it’s thrown at you personally.
But Friends, not one of us knows, what tomorrow may bring. This whole situation would be much scarier, if I did NOT have Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. But know this, I am a daughter of the most High King. He directs my path, and the very steps I take.
If this turns out to be a form of Cancer, and I’m stating a “BIG IF” it does, I know without a doubt, God will still take care of me, just like he ALWAYS does. I will be held safely in the arms of Christ.
For instance, let’s say the worst “MAY” happen, and they have to remove, a big section of my foot, or the whole thing. Do I want that to happen? Absolutely NOT!!!! Will it be easy for me? NO, it would be hard, and probably one of the hardest challenges, I would ever face.
I’m just wanting to make a point
“IF” that were to happen, would I turn my back on God? NO! Would I blame God, and lash out at the people around me? Again NO! Would I feel sorry for myself? NO! God will still be Faithful! God will still be Good! I would still praise him and shout of his complete goodness over my life!
I’m sure you’ve read the Story about Job in the Bible right? Job was a wealthy man, living in a land called Uz, with his large family and extensive flocks. He was “blameless” and “upright,” always careful to avoid doing evil. One day, Satan appears before God in heaven. God boasts to Satan, about Job’s goodness, but Satan argues, that Job is only good, because God has blessed him abundantly.
Satan challenges God, that if given permission to punish the man, Job will turn and curse God. God allows Satan to torment Job, to test this bold claim, but he forbids Satan to take Job’s life in the process.
In the course of one day, Job loses EVERYTHING!! Job receives four messages, each bearing separate news, that his livestock, servants, and ten children, have all died, due to marauding invaders, or natural catastrophes. Job tears his clothes, and shaves his head in mourning, but he still blesses God in his prayers.
Satan appears in heaven again, and God grants him another chance, to test Job. This time, Job is afflicted with horrible skin sores. His wife encourages him to curse God, and to give up and die, but Job refuses, struggling to accept his circumstances. In the end he still speaks of God’s goodness. I used Job as an example, because what an example he is right? If he can go through ALL that, and can still Praise his God, SO CAN I.
I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart, I have overcome the world. (John 16:33).
Notice it doesn’t say, IF, but is does say WILL have tribulation. But it also states, that in CHRIST, we will have PEACE. My hope is found in Jesus Christ alone. However my health situation unfolds, I will NOT be walking it alone.
Whatever journey God wants to use me for, here I am. If what I go through on this earth, will help someone, in ANY way, it will be worth it
For this light momentary affliction, is preparing for us, an eternal weight of glory, beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen, but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:17-18).
Verses That Inspire Me In The Unknown
- For I, the LORD your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you. (Isaiah 41:13).
- Yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. (James 4:14).
- The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps. (Proverbs 16:9).
- For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11).
- Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring. (Proverbs 27:1).
- For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing. (Ecclesiastes 3:1-8).
Your Sister in Christ
Hey Friends. Thank you for taking time out of your day, to spend a few moments in mine. As a follower of Jesus Christ, it’s important to me to share the gospel with you. I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.