You know the old saying …If I knew then what I know now I sure would’ve done things differently. But that isn’t God at Work I’ve have made that statement numerous times, and I’m sure you have as well. At times it’s so incredibly hard to see God at work when in our minds we can’t get past the mistakes that we have made. We have all done and said things, we so desperately wished we hadn’t and then we live with the shame, remorse, guilt, and the list can go on and on.
Sadly, we become slaves to the bondage of our failures and we can’t seem to find a way to let them go, or more importantly, forgive ourselves. It has taken much time and prayer to get through some of the hardest and challenging times in my life. It is only by God’s grace and sovereignty that has sustained me through them even when I doubted God’s goodness. I want to take you through 10 Powerful points on how God works through tragedies.
10 Powerful Points on God Working Through Tragedies
God Working Through Me: Point One
The worst mistake I’ve ever made in my life is turning my back on God! Oh, how it pains my soul to admit that. Unfortunately, it’s too many times to count I’m afraid. Those who know me now must be thinking, YOU? No way! You see I allowed situations and circumstances to come between myself and my Savior for years. One is where I lived for almost fifteen years in a very abusive marriage. I was brought you shouldn’t divorce. Period! That being said, I was shattered to the point that I have no self-esteem whatsoever even to this day. After a while, you start believing all the lies and negativity bombarded towards you.
God is Always Working Behind the Scenes: Point Two
At the time I put the blame on anything and anyone but myself. Sure my life was hard to handle for a very long time but I still could’ve chosen NOT to let the issues get in the way. Out of fear I chose the easy road and gave up. God does not promise us a life without heartache and pain but he does promise to be there with us through it all. But I just walked away over and over. I want to share Ten Powerful Points on God working behind the scenes in my life.
Suicide Attempt: Point Three
One night, I did the unthinkable. Simply stated I did NOT want to live anymore because I was so broken, beaten down, and the pain was just too much and couldn’t take it another day. I was completely isolated from my family and felt I had no way out. I thought, Surely God must have decided he didn’t love me anymore, right?
He could fix this but he didn’t. I couldn’t see God at work in this and thought I deserved to be treated the way I was, and it was my fault it was happening. So, I took a whole bottle of very strong narcotics. I don’t even remember where they came from. All I know is this was the lowest point rock bottom I ever felt in my life and wanted to crawl under the covers and not wake up.
BUT GOD AT WORK
God doesn’t give up on HIS children and he had other plans for me. I know without a doubt if I had gone to bed I’d be dead. God saved me from me. Friends, that was my wake up call. Scary to think back on it now how close I truly came to meet my maker and not be ready to do so.
When You Sense Something Bad: Point Four
Let me tell you about Tyler. You see, Tyler was my first Grandchild. He was a very happy, healthy baby. My husband and I live 5 hours from my hometown of Kentucky where most of my family still lives. We had gone to visit twice and we went for a third visit. We just couldn’t get enough of our new little bundle of joy. I cannot put into words how this time the visit was different.
When we went to tell everyone our goodbyes we saved my daughter and Tyler for last. Just when I went to pick Tyler up and I got a very somber feeling to blast me and I was crying so hard I got my husband, daughter, and Tyler’s daddy all crying. I couldn’t understand why I didn’t want to let Tyler go. At one point my daughter said, “For goodness sake Mom, it’s not like you’re never going to see him again!” Becky was laughing at me for being so emotional. Reluctantly, we said our goodbyes.
God is Preparing You Beforehand: Point Five
Needless to say, the ride back to NC was a very somber one. Little did my daughter know that was going to be my last time seeing Tyler. Four days later my Precious Grandson passed of SIDS. He was only 5 1/2 months old. It was as if God was preparing me beforehand but I got so angry and mad at God! How can a loving God take my first grandchild from me? I told him have I not suffered enough? HOW DARE YOU!
I told God I want nothing to do with Him!
Long story short when you lose a child or grandchild it’s something that takes time to work through and it doesn’t happen overnight. Does the pain ever go away? I’m not gonna sugarcoat it when I say it doesn’t. Over time the pain lessens somewhat and you learn to move on. Are there days when Tyler’s loss overwhelms me? Absolutely! However, I wouldn’t wish this kind of loss to anyone.
Surrendering our lives to God: Point Six
Years later Mike and I are finally able to put this behind us and everything couldn’t be better. My Church does God at Work video testimonies and our Pastor asked one of our Worship Team Leaders to see if Mike and I would be willing to be featured in a God at Work segment which is a video testimony of your life before and after coming to Christ that they show during service. They told us to talk about it and let them know our answer. Doesn’t sound so bad right?
Giving God Honor and Glory: Point Seven
Our church is no small facility and by the way, they have two services. Our Friends and members of the church will know EVERYTHING about our life. After agreeing to do this doubts about doing so ran rapidly in my mind with questions such as…
- What will they think of me breaking my marriage vows?
- Will they look down on me because I attempted suicide?
- Will they think I won’t be a good enough Christian example to use because I turned my back on God again and again?
- If word gets back to my ex-husband, will I have to suffer the consequences and endless questioning?
Doubts Doing the Right Thing: Point Eight
I told Mike I’m not so sure I can do this. But in the end, we aren’t supposed to fear man and how they may perceive us. We are to be more concerned with pleasing God! We never know how we will be used to see God at work in the lives of others. I Prayed and said dear God make it clear this is calling me to do because, in the end, I want to Honor YOU and for YOU to be Glorified.
This isn’t about ME. This is about God at Work! It’s about who may see this and come to know YOU. Sweet Peace filled my heart, and I knew I was doing the right thing.
The truth about God at Work: Point Nine
How can we ever expect anyone to come to know Jesus if we are not willing to be open and honest about what God has brought us out of? People think they need to get their “act together” first before committing to God. People have this misguided concept that Christians are perfect, which we aren’t and never will be this side of eternity!
News flash about God at Work: Point Ten
If you’re waiting for you to get “Perfect” you’re going to be waiting for a very long time because it will NEVER happen. Only Jesus Christ is Perfect. We are all carrying burdens and storms of life that aren’t ours to bear. Sweet Friend Jesus IS our refuge in the storms. Jesus bore ALL of it on the Cross for ALL of us!
As Christians, we are called to share the good news of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, and tell how he’s changed us from the inside out. We are all sinners saved by God’s Grace alone, through Faith alone, not by works. Jesus gave his life, as a ransom for all so you and I would not face God’s wrath. He died a death he did not deserve but we do. You and I don’t deserve his Grace and Mercy but he freely gives it to us because he loves us that much.
In Closing on God at Work through Tragedies
Sweet Friends, it’s a given to say we will all face some kind of tragedy in our lifetime. Losing Tyler has been by far the hardest. That being said, tragedy brings us together in ways that build friendships to last a lifetime too. If you can handle this southern country girl’s voice I am attaching the video my Church did and I hope it speaks to your heart. It goes much deeper into how God has worked in our lives.
We are given one chance one life to live that’s it and we need to make the most of it in the way that matters most. Tell others about the saving grace of Jesus Christ and how he can break every chain that holds them captive. There is no better way to see God at work than to see chains breaking.
May God be Glorified in ALL things.