I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. (Romans 12:1).
I am going, to be honest.
There are many times, when I have attended the Worship service, with the wrong attitude.
My mind is so preoccupied, with so many different things, that I do NOT give God, my full attention.
Have you felt like this before also beloved?
My Church has been, in a season of transformation, for a while now.
I find myself getting so discouraged.
So many people have left, due to the instability.
I have in the back of my mind, all these lingering doubts and questions, what is next to happen, and who is gonna leave next Lord?
You grow a relationship with your Church family, and then they decide to move on somewhere else.
In a sense, it feels like they’re leaving you too.
I totally get it, and I understand why they feel the need, to move on elsewhere.
It’s NOT like the Pastors and Elders aren’t doing a great job, because they are.
I don’t know how to explain why I am so troubled.
I LOVE my Church, but I can’t deny that I do NOT understand what’s happening.
I find myself questioning God.
Is this really where you want me to be Lord?
During services lately, my mind is so overwhelmed, with the circumstances around me, that I dwell on that, instead of focusing on my Savior, and that is so NOT cool!
It’s frustrating when you start to nick pick every service, just looking for a reason to say, you know what God, I’m just NOT feeling it today.
Can I just leave now Lord?
This doesn’t feel right!
Everything seems off!
I can serve you better at home.
However, in my Spirit I’m questioning, where are you God, and why do I feel this way?
What is wrong with me?
Why is the Church going through this?
Why are you letting it, go on like this God?
Step in and do something!
Talking about having the wrong attitude.
I’m even ashamed to be admitting it to you, but it is the truth.
NOTHING catches God by surprise.
He knew beforehand, all the changes, that we’re gonna take place.
I know I need to trust his wisdom in ALL things.
God WILL bring completion, what he has started, he will finish.
See Friends, You can hide your feelings, from the people around you, but you can NOT hide, what lies within your heart from God.
For nothing is hidden that will not be made manifest, nor is anything secret that will not be known and come to light. (Luke 8:17).
I attend Church every week, sing along with the worship team, hear the sermon from God’s word, and place my ties and offering in the basket, as it passes me by.
But at times, I feel like I’m doing it, out of habit and obligation, instead of honoring God.
I too have been thinking about going elsewhere, like so many others have, but then I feel guilty, for even considering it.
This has been my Church home, for about five years.
We even host Lifegroup at our home.
I can NOT let them down, by considering going somewhere else.
Friends, first off I want to make very clear, my relationship with God is stronger than ever.
I’ve grown so much, in my walk with God.
But it’s so hard to keep the “Right Attitude” when you start questioning if you’re where God wants you to be.
My struggle is real, but it feels like a game, of tug of war.
I’ve even gone to husband and told him how I feel in my heart.
I do know one thing, I do NOT want to feel this way, and I desperately need peace.
Usually, I plaster a big ole smile on my face, while telling everyone I’m fine, and all is good.
But that statement is far from the truth.
God wants ALL OF ME.
He deserves my full attention, especially when I walk into his sanctuary.
I should have nothing on my mind, but complete adoration, for the one who gave up his life for me, so I can have eternal life in Heaven.
I’ve decided regardless of the turmoil, I have in my spirit, I must separate that when it comes to giving God my worship.
My Worship should NOT be based, on my feelings of the unknown, rather it should be about one truth, God is worthy to be praised.
So if you are struggling like I am, listen to the Holy Spirits prompting.
He will never steer us in the wrong direction.
Keep Praying and trust that God will work everything out in HIS timing, NOT ours, no matter what we want it fixed NOW.
Keep putting your faith and trust in God, NOT on the circumstances.
Know that God WILL work it all out, for his Glory.
Put the situation in HIS capable hands, and give God, the Worship he deserves.
I have listed a couple of verses below to remind us, that God is worthy of worship, regardless of our circumstances
Give to the Lord the glory due to His name, Bring an offering, and come before Him. Oh, worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness! (1 Chronicle 16:29).
Give to the Lord the glory due to His name, Bring an offering, and come into His courts. Oh, worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness! Tremble before Him, all the earth. (Psalm 96:8-9).
Oh, come, let us worship and bow down, Let us kneel before the Lord our Maker. (Psalm 95:6).
Though what lies ahead, may NOT be known at this time, My relationship with God will ALWAYS remain.
I will NOT fear the circumstances surrounding me, I WILL choose to stay, Joyful in the Lord!
I WILL Keep pouring out the Love, I have in my Heart to my Savior, and I will lay my concerns at his feet.
Your Sister in Christ
Hey Friends. Thank you for taking time out of your day, to spend a few moments in mine. As a follower of Jesus Christ, it’s important to me to share the gospel with you. I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.