Working in Oncology can pull on your heartstrings. I’m currently working as a Phlebotomist, at a local Oncology office.
When I had my interview as a possible new hire I was told that this job isn’t for everyone.
The office manager wanted to tell me about one specific new hire they had in the past.
She went on to say this individual worked till lunchtime on their first day came back to her office with tears streaming down their face.
Her Reply is below
“I don’t see how anyone can work here it’s too difficult and I just can’t do it and they left.”
At first, my thought process was what?
Not even a full day surely it’s not that hard?
However, once I started working there I could see what she was getting at.
I’m gonna keep it real!
I LOVE MY JOB but it can be draining some days.
I get so attached to the patients, family members, and friends, that come with them to their appointments.
It’s hard NOT to do so!
Some come in for blood work and treatment 2-3 times weekly.
These precious people are more like family to me than patients.
One of the most difficult parts of my job is watching their health decline and seeing how Chemotherapy takes its toll on their body.
When we lose one you feel the loss deep in your soul.
My Mama had throat cancer and her only way of communicating is by a voice stick.
My Daddy passed away from COPD but he also had colon cancer.
I have several autoimmune disorders that I live with.
I use to play the “Why Me” Lord card?
Why are you making me suffer this way?
I truly feel that God opened this door for me at the oncology office to show me something.
Yes, I struggle but after seeing what oncology patients go through and deal with what I go through doesn’t come close to comparing.
To be honest I am ashamed of myself if I start to complain
God has shown me through these amazing people that my health could be worse than it is.
I see that on a daily basis.
When a patient is first told these words I am so sorry but you have Cancer.
I can’t begin to fathom the thoughts that may cross their mind.
I am so incredibly thankful that I am NOT the one who has to deliver that news.
I wouldn’t be able to do it!
The worst is hearing the treatment isn’t working and they need to consider palliative or hospice care.
I can’t tell you the countless times I have been sticking a patient as tears are streaming down my face.
When I see a patient is upset I close my curtain to allow them to have a good cry and Pray for them on the spot.
Suffering produces endurance
I know how difficult it can be when you watch someone suffer immensely.
It will definitely teach you patience and Endurance.
But God never promises us that life would be easy.
But he did promise to discipline us to refine us to grow us in our faith.
And while we don’t know what the end result looks like we know God is ultimately good and he has our best in mind.
12. Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you.
13. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.
14 If you are insulted for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you.
15. But let none of you suffer as a murderer or a thief or an evildoer or as a meddler.
16. Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in that name.
17. For it is time for judgment to begin at the household of God; and if it begins with us, what will be the outcome for those who do not obey the gospel of God?
18. And “If the righteous is scarcely saved, what will become of the ungodly and the sinner?”
19. Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.
Endurance produces character
Character is being refined in us when going through battles.
When life is difficult it will us what we’re made of.
It transcends beyond what we may be going through showing up in the form of wisdom, insight, and courage.
I can tell you that I have NEVER witnessed more courage than seeing my patients deal with what they do.
They’ll still have a big ole smile on their face and still, claim GOD IS SO GOOD!
Upon seeing this, if it doesn’t bring change to your heart, nothing will.
I am in AWE of witnessing their Character even more.
Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.
Character produces hope:
Hope in Jesus keeps you grounded when walking with him through suffering.
Hope is found in the many promises that God has gives us.
No matter what pain we may suffer we can always hold onto the Hope he lovingly extends.
He’s given us the best helper known to a believer which is the Holy Spirit.
With him, inside us, we will never have to walk alone.
3. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance.
4. And endurance produces character, and character produces hope.
5. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him my salvation and my God.
I want you to share with you, what my patients tell, me all of the time.
They’ll say THANK YOU for being who you are!
I appreciate you inspiring me!
You show me love and care by tenderly taking such good care of me!
My journey is so much more bearable being around your positive energy.
I will reply with…I believe you have that backward!
Inspiring? YOU inspire ME!
Grounded? YOU teach ME my health issues don’t come close to what you deal with so it keeps me focused knowing I can have it much worse than I do!
YOU show ME that I need to be more like you!
YOU lift ME up, simply by being YOU!
I dedicate this blog, to ALL those who affected by Cancer
My name is Angie and I’m all “about” sharing the unconditional Love, Hope, Restoration, and Salvation, that is found in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I write about where my life was before accepting Christ Jesus as my Savior and my journey now as I walk with Him daily. Thank You so much for taking time out of your day to spend a few moments in mine. If you found this post encouraging can I ask you to Please share it with someone else who may need to read it as well? You can share via the buttons below.