This post is ALL about ME using the wrong attitude and I’m confessing my faults barring my soul and swallowing a BIG OLE piece of humble pie. That being said…Making Tough Choices Is Hard!
I wanted to take some time today to speak about making tough choices. Have you experienced something in your life that has crushed your spirit and left you with a shattered heart?
The righteous cry out and the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart and saves such as have a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:17-18
Situations That Surround Making Tough Choices
I know we all face disappointment from time to time that is a reality of life due to the fact we live in such a dark evil and broken world. But this is much different!
Life has recently thrown me a curveball that has spun so out of control that it has left me reeling because I did NOT see this issue coming AT ALL!
I watched a movie not long ago about a runaway train that could not be stopped and I feel myself on this fast-moving train that I don’t want to be on. I want OFF!! NOW!
Oh GOD, your daughter is crying out to you…HELP ME!
My weekend started off with Gavin coming over like he always does because he LOVES staying with his Mamaw and Pap on the weekends. I think it’s the highlight of the week for ALL of us.
My husband and Gavin were going to spend time together at the trampoline park while I was going to meet my Bestie for lunch. Needless to say, those plans had changed.
My friend got detained and had to cancel our lunch. I was disappointed but I understood completely. She and I don’t get to spend as much time together as we use to and any time we get I look forward to.
Life kinda gets in the way of that.
When you look at work, family, church, dinner, cleaning, lifegroup…etc, just to name a few of the reasons it makes it difficult for us both to able to make time for one another. After canceling our lunch plans I decided to go grab a quick bite before returning home.
I was planning to go to my daughter’s afterward to drop something off for her however while I was eating I got several messages saying that I needed to call.
I said “what in the world?”
This is where my heart shattered in a million pieces.
The first thing that was said to me was this…Angie, I hate to be the one to tell you this and I could tell they were crying. I was ok just tell me but I’m NOT gonna go into specifics of that conversation.
It’s very personal so I ask that you respect that by not asking for details. I just want to make a point in all this.
Needless to say, I was in shock.
As I kept listening I replied, “I don’t think what your statement can be true!” “Surely NOT!” “They would NEVER do that!” “Not to us!” NOT, after ALL, we have done for this individual!”
Was I EVER wrong!
For nothing is secret that will not be revealed, nor anything hidden that will not be known and come to light.
As this conversation kept unfolding I could NOT believe it. I was so upset and crying so hard I could barely drive as my tears flowed down my face!
Worst scenario EVER!!
Not only this but someone very close to me was going to be devastated because making tough choices is hard to do!
I tried my best to calm down before going to this individual to see if they would admit what they had done.
Friends I am human I know I make mistakes and don’t always handle things in the right way but put yourself in my place when the one being wronged is more than my Best Friend she’s a part of my family more like a sister to me really!
I did NOT handle the situation in love and let my emotions get the best of me!
I had already had a trying week at work and many patients are being faced with dire circumstances that left me feeling defenseless to help them.
The sad part is it’s NOT up to me the situations they are handed but I can’t help but feel I need to help them carry their burdens sometimes.
I want to “fix” everyone because it’s a part of who I am.
Y’all, as soon as I pulled up the driveway I blew it! I snapped!
I confronted the individual and to my complete utter shock…It was true!!
They didn’t even try to deny it. I just knew this had to be a mistake because there was NO WAY they would’ve done this! For me to find out it was the truth I couldn’t believe it and I don’t think it could’ve hurt more than it did because I felt betrayed!
I spoke my peace in a NOT so nice way.
I did NOT curse or anything like that but the individual felt the venom of my words.
I am a Christian and I am NOT supposed to act like that and I know I’m supposed to trust God’s plan.
I am to show kindness, love, and understanding and I told myself that on the drive over there but as soon as the truth came to light I was ready to let them have it.
The words I used
First off I pointed at him and said
YOU! IN THE HOUSE…NOW!!
HOW COULD YOU AND HOW DARE YOU!
AFTER ALL, WE HAVE DONE FOR YOU, HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO US!
THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY US! REALLY!
I came home feeling worse than ever but sometimes in life making touch choices is hard to do yet you must make them!
We had a Lifegroup BBQ and as I sat there and tried to enjoy the company around me all I could hear was the shouting of my voice!
When I went to bed I couldn’t sleep and I would wake up to those same shouting spewing words!
I feel so ashamed!
Granted, if you knew the details you would completely understand why I reacted the way I did and know I had every right to be angry and upset but I definitely could have handled it in a better way.
I have tried to come up with scriptures that would back up my behavior.
Jesus got angry!
Then Jesus went into the temple of God and drove out all those who bought and sold in the temple and overturned the tables of the money changers and the seats of those who sold doves. And He said to them, “It is written, ‘My house shall be called a house of prayer,’ but you have made it a ‘den of thieves.
I have tried to justify my actions and I’m NOT accomplishing that. I feel like the worst person EVER!!
At Church service Sunday I felt beyond guilty. While I was trying to sing, worship, and follow along with the Pastor giving his sermon it was as if I had a black cloud hanging over my head.
Does Satan whispering the lie…You are a ____?
GIVE UP AND CALL IT QUITS!
I’ve said it before and I will say it again if you give Satan an inch he will take a mile.
I wanted to update my website and that did NOT go over well when I spent days upon days trying to fix it and spent every waking moment on it until I got that accomplished however I did NOT spend alone time with just Me and God.
That should come first before anyone or anything.
I’m NOT saying my Blog and Page isn’t a good tool to use for Jesus Christ because it is, I just can’t let it consume ALL of me.
I wanted to start working on a new Blog post and BAM this incident occurred!
If you are living your life for Jesus Christ you can be certain we WILL face opposition.
I’ve always been told this: If you are NOT being tested, then you should check to see if your faith is genuine!
Know that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
Yes, and all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution.
Here’s The Point I Want to Make About Making Tough Choices
- Was this individual wrong in what they did? Yes
- Can it be undone? No
- Do they regret doing it? I sure hope so
- Do they need to pay for their actions? Yes
- Should others suffer for their mistake? No
In Closing- Making Tough Choices
- First and most importantly, I repented and asked God’s Forgiveness!
- Did I react poorly? Yes
- Can it be undone? No
- Do I regret speaking to them the way I did? Yes
- I have to make it right and say I’m Sorry for speaking to them the way I did.
I was so hurt that I lashed out and the Holy Spirit convicted me NOT for doing what I did but the way I went about it! See how making tough choices is so hard?
It’s NOT because what they did was right because it was NOT it was definitely wrong.
I spoke to this person very harshly and I can’t live with that and confess to being a Christian and my behavior did NOT reflect that and for that, I’m very ashamed.
My advice and reply is this: Before you go reacting by your emotions take the time to breathe and calm down before you react so you don’t live with the regret shame and remorse later.
Sadly, the worst part of this whole scenario was having to do the “RIGHT THING!” The “RIGHT THING” can be “HARDEST THING” to do.
Especially when you have to hurt someone you love more than your own life.
Christians have to be forgiving but that doesn’t mean you have condoned or agree with their actions.
We are simply called to Forgive.
Then Peter came to Him and said, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.