Friends, have you ever found yourself in a situation that caught you completely off guard and you were consumed with overwhelming panic and fear?
Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.
The Most Recent Time I Faced Overwhelming Panic and Fear
Very recently I found myself in this place. It was a moment that brought back old fears and insecurities like a crashing wave pulling me under. I couldn’t breathe!
If you have read my personal testimony you are well aware that I was in an abusive marriage for almost fifteen years of my life. That experience has left me broken and shattered to a degree that affects me to this day in many ways. For the most part, I deal with it quite well. Well, at least I thought I did.
That is until I found myself unexpectedly in an Overwhelming Panic and not so good scenario. I quickly found myself cowering in the corner trying my best to keep from trembling and falling apart.
By the way, I Lost!
See Friends I usually do WHATEVER I HAVE TO to avoid confrontation of ANY kind with ANYONE! Period!
First, I hate it because it brings back too many unpleasant memories for me and pretty much keep to myself to avoid it altogether. Also, I believe I’m under the assumption if I keep others at a distance they will NOT have the ability to physically harm me again..EVER!!
If I find myself around people that are showing ANY signs of becoming angry, aggressive, demanding, or confrontational, trust me, I get away as quickly as possible.
It makes me extremely nervous and I’m NOT gonna give specifics (so PLEASE respect that) by NOT asking for details but I will share this much with you.
I had an encounter recently with an individual that reminded me so much of my ex-husband’s behavior pattern that I was more than ready to bolt. I have seen the anger, resentment, and raging behavior, almost instantly.
The longer I was around this individual anxiety crept it’s a claw, into my whole being. I had to fight the fear and get through it.
It was NOT easy!! IT WAS HARD!!
Memories had me locked in my past of Overwhelming Panic and Fear!
When I was finally alone I was NOT in the best frame of mind, and that is an understatement! I’m ashamed to be admitting that but it’s the truth.
I’m a child of God and I should have been stronger than that. I should have prayed for God to remove the overwhelming panic and fear that had me in its grip!
I should NOT have allowed the fear in my mind to replace the faith and assurance that I have in my heart and I let God down by not calling on him to fill me with his Peace! I didn’t even think at the time that God is my strong tower the one whom I can cling to because I couldn’t get past what was in front of me!!
I have NOT had this type of fear and reaction in quite some time. Maybe it was due to the fact I have NOT had to worry about this type of behavior since leaving the abusive relationship I was in.
As a result by the time I got alone, I couldn’t shake what was happening with me. My whole body was shaking and trembling and I couldn’t get it to stop.
I remember saying over and over again I thought the individual was going to hit or harm me. A friend of mine was trying their best to bring me back to reality.
To be honest, I do NOT know how long they had their hands on my shoulders while telling me, “Angie, look into my eyes, you’re safe now.”
Battling Panic and Fear From The Past
I WAS A MESS! Could it have been a panic attack?
I don’t know maybe. Possibly an anxiety attack?
Again, I’m not sure.
I have the most loving gentle kind and compassionate man in my life now and I do NOT fear him because he’s NEVER given me a reason to feel threatened by him in anyway shape or fashion and I thank God for him!
He knew who I needed in my life and sent him my way.
Furthermore, what’s so bad is this, many people witnessed my meltdown. I feel ashamed, embarrassed, and humiliated. Do they think I’m crazy? Do they understand why I reacted, the way I did? Will they think less of me?
Why did I allow this, to affect me, the way it did Friends? I thought I was stronger than that! I love how the Holy Spirit works. Deep down in my heart, I already knew the answer.
Incidentally, I tried to handle the situation, in my own strength and allowed fear to hold me captive instead of God’s peace.
First, I didn’t call upon the name of the Lord who is my Strong tower first because I was frozen in panic and fear.
Instead, I let pride get in the way of allowing others to help me. This is because I didn’t want to be seen as weak and I should have separated myself from it to start with.
As a result, if another issue like this arises I know who I MUST turn to first and foremost!
My Redeemer, My Rock, My Fortress!
That is God Almighty and him alone Friends!
I messed up BIG TIME and I need to be honest with myself and you and admit that. When this happens again I need to remind myself to Replace Fear cause by Abuse with God’s Peace
Scriptures of Truth about Panic and Fear
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid? Psalm 27:1
For I, the Lord your God will hold your right hand, Saying to you, Fear not, I will help you. Isaiah 41:13
Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You. In God (I will praise His word), In God I have put my trust; I will not fear. What can flesh do to me? Psalm 56:3-4
Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7
Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. John 14:27
Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always in every way. The Lord be with you all. 2 Thessalonians 3:16
For He, Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.” So we may boldly say: “The LORD is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?” Hebrews 13:5-6
Cast your burden on the Lord, And He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved. Psalm 55:22
For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, “Abba Father.” Romans 8:15
To begin with, God is the one whom we can always depend on who will be there for us no matter the situation.
Above all, I would love to tell you this will be the ONLY time I let God down but that is NOT true.
Besides, the truth is, I let him down on a daily basis because I am NOT perfect and I will make one mistake after another.
Above all, the good news is I have a savior Jesus Christ who took the penalty that I deserve so I can be made righteous before God.
THAT IS A PROMISE I CLING TO!
He is my Strong Tower and may I seek him…More Than Anything
Hello Sweet Friend. My name is Angie. My Prayer for you is what God has placed on my heart to write today has encouraged you and given you hope in whatever you may be going through at this time. I have learned that God’s timing is exactly when we need it the most. Let’s Continue to Find Hope and Healing through God’s Grace together. If you found this post encouraging can I ask you to Please share it with someone else who may need to read it as well? You can share via the buttons below. Thank You for Your Partnership in Gaining Gospel Progress for God’s Kingdom.