Happy Birthday in Heaven Tyler!! God PLEASE give my little one a tight squeeze and kiss on the cheek since I can NOT do it myself…for now
And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away. (Revelation 21:4).
Friends, have you found yourself looking forward to a particular day but dreading it all at the same time? January 16 brings numerous happy memories for me and my family but it also has devastating ones as well.
The birth of our first grandchild. When Tyler entered into our lives it brought us much exuberant joy! I never knew it was possible to love someone so much until his small little body was within my reach. Let’s just say I was smitten.
The photo displayed here is when I first held Tyler in my arms. Can you see the look of pure contentment on my face? It’s quite hard to miss, isn’t it? It’s ok if you wanna poke fun at my “BIG HAIR” I know it was bad but I was much younger and didn’t know any better. Lol!
If you are a grandmother you know firsthand the feeling you have within your heart when you have a grandchild don’t you? It’s extremely difficult trying to explain that to those who do not have any yet isn’t it?
Let’s just say they have you wrapped around their tiny little fingers and stubby toes.
If you have a sense of what that may feel like imagine it being taken away as quickly as it was given. An unthinkable scenario isn’t it? When a child is born we assume we’re gonna have all the time in the world with them, don’t we?
Our human way of perceiving life is seeing our children live long and healthy lives NOT our children leaving this world behind and you and I left to grieve their loss. I know death is a natural part of life but its still hard especially when its a baby or small child.
You can read Tyler’s full story and dedication here.
We lost Tyler to SIDS when he was only 4 1/2 months old. Loss of a child is something I wouldn’t want anyone to live through. I know firsthand what that feels like and how it has affected my family.
I’m NOT gonna sugarcoat it for the longest time, I was full of anger resentment and bitterness. His precious life had just gotten started! I couldn’t understand the reasoning for my baby boy being taken away from us so soon.
At times I still don’t get it and it’s not meant for me to understand.
God is the giver and taker of life, NOT Angie
A time to be born, And a time to die; A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted. (Ecclesiastes 3:2).
It seems every year when January 16 approaches Satan rapidly loves reminding me of my failures actions and words I used when Tyler passed away. Granted I wasn’t living my life for God at that time and to be honest I truly believe that’s what makes it the most difficult.
Y’all all I could see at that time was the loss of losing my baby NOT the eternal hope of being reunited in Heaven with him! I did NOT put my HOPE and faith in Jesus Christ.
Friends without HOPE, we will remain lost and NOT be found! Without HOPE all we will see is darkness and despair.
Do you NOT remember how it felt when YOUR God took Tyler? Do you NOT know YOUR GOD could’ve stopped it? YOUR God wanted YOU to hurt! YOUR God was punishing YOU for walking away from him! Give In! Relent! God is NOT good!
Does he know how much he’s cherished?
What would he look like today?
What kind of personality would he have?
Would he be in sports?
Would he be in music?
Would he protect his little brother?
Would Gavin look to him as a role model?
Would he and Gavin have been close?
Would he be into electronics and games like his little brother?
What would he grow up to be?
Would he know how he’s impacting lives today? Mine the most!
I am Forgiven!
I am Loved!
I am Redeemed!
I am HIS Beloved Child!
When we come boldly before the throne of Grace and bow humbly on bended knees before the Almighty God and repent of our sins God graciously forgives us and remembers our sins no more.
- For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their lawless deeds I will remember no more.” (Hebrews 8:12).
- “I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; And I will not remember your sins. (Isaiah 43:25).
If you are like me in weak moments such as today when the floodgates of memories open up like a rushing tidal wave we need to hold fast to the very Promises of God and his word.
We must put Satan in his place and stomp him into the ground back to Hell where he belongs. Put on the full Armor of God and be ready to battle.
The past failures that bombard our thoughts are what Satan will use against us again and again because it’s ALL he’s got to use to get our hearts and minds off Jesus.
The Whole Armor of God
- Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. (Ephesians 6:10).
- Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. (Ephesians 6:11).
- For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. (Ephesians 6:12).
- Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. (Ephesians 6:13).
- Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness. (Ephesians 6:14).
- And having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace. (Ephesians 6:15).
- Above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. (Ephesians 6:16).
- And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. (Ephesians 6:17).
I know today will NOT be an easy day but I will lean into the Lord where I find ALL my hope and strength!
AT MY LOWEST: GOD IS MY HOPE!
AT MY DARKEST: GOD IS MY LIGHT!
AT MY WEAKEST: GOD IS MY STRENGTH!
AT MY SADDEST: GOD IS MY COMFORTER!
Children are a blessing and gift that are meant to be treasured NO MATTER how long we have them in our presence! I definitely treasure Tyler then and will forevermore!
Children’s tenderhearted spirits are filled with innocence, joy, and laughter. I will remember Tyler’s award-winning smile and infectious laughter as long as I have breath in my lungs!
My walk with Jesus Christ is more grounded than ever! I choose today to honor Tyler with the HAPPY memories I do NOT want to linger on the loss of his life because, in ALL honesty, he’s more alive than I EVER will be this side of eternity.
I want to Thank God for the gift of Gavin in our lives! Gavin is such a tender-hearted sweet soul and I couldn’t be more grateful to God for him!
Satan I refuse to let you tarnish the memory of my baby boy!! NOT TODAY…or no other!
Your Sister in Christ
Welcome! My name is Angie and I’m all “about” sharing the unconditional Love, Hope, and Salvation, that is found in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ! I’m just a nobody wanting to tell everybody about somebody…JESUS CHRIST! I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.