But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians: 9-10).
All my “Issues” started back in 2008. My family Dr done blood work, and the results showed I had hyperthyroidism, which is too much thyroid hormone. Y’all, my chest felt like a butterfly was stuck in there, trying to fight its way out and couldn’t. She repeated the same blood work over a period of a couple of weeks, with the same results. She said I had to see an Endocrinologist ASAP. If you know anything about results of blood work regarding your thyroid, the levels are backward, to what other results are. Mine was so low they would register -0, meaning it wouldn’t even register. IT WAS WAY TO HIGH!
They got me in to see an Endocrinologist, and he did his own blood work, scans, etc…Test results were conclusive, that I had Graves Disease. I know it sounds like a death sentence. I wish it had another name. Lol. Needless to Say, I was told POINT BLANK, if you don’t do what I tell you to do, exactly as I say, YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BE LIVING LONG!! Yes, he was that BLUNT! I was told no exercise, and leisurely walking only. I had to take radioactive iodine, to completely destroy my thyroid, if NOT it would destroy me! Talking about telling you like it is! I had to be isolated from people for thirteen days. CRAZY STUFF! However, once this was done, though it saved my life, and had to be done, my immune system is shot. I get sick VERY EASY and I lose my voice ALL THE TIME!
Graves disease is an AutoImmune Disease, that forces antibodies, to attack their own body’s tissues. Normally, the immune system protects the body, from viruses and other germs. However, Graves disease confuses the immune system, and makes the Thyroid gland produce too much thyroid hormone. Extra hormones lead to the metabolism becoming extremely active. You can suffer problems such as an accelerated heartbeat, weight loss, heart failure, sensitivity to hot and cold, dry hair and skin, and high blood pressure. It’s taken a while to get that regulated, but for the most part, it stays in good range.
In 2010, when I went to lay my head on my pillow, I noticed I had a tender spot on my neck. I asked Mike to take a look at it, and he said it was just a small red bump. I thought nothing of it, and he said why didn’t I just lay on my opposite side. When my alarm went off in the morning to get ready for work, I couldn’t even raise my head. I grabbed my neck, and said IT HURTS SO BAD! Mike got up and flipped the light on, he said…YOU’RE NOT GOING TO WORK, WE’RE TAKING YOU TO THE DR….NOW! Y’all, I am NOT exaggerating, Dumbo had nothing on me! The whole left side of face, ear, and neck, was super huge! Fire red and hot to the touch! I walked in to my PCP, she called ENT, and told them I was on my way. I got there, they took me straight back.
As soon as they seen me, I felt like a freak show on parade. The Dr I seen said he had NEVER seen anything like this before EVER! They did a CT stat because their first thinking was it’s a tumor. Nothing was seen besides swelling and fluid. I was asked if I was bitten or maybe had scratched it, and I said no. To this day they don’t know what caused it, but it has left my hearing severely damaged. Long story short is I have ringing, roaring, and fullness, ALL THE TIME! It doesn’t go away. EVER! I’ve been told, “You’ll get use to it!” It’s been going on almost 10 years, and guess what…I have NOT got use to it. Sigh!
Around 2012 I started having really bad vertigo. I’m NOT talking about whoops, I think I need to sit down…I’m talking about NOT being able to stand up…PERIOD! I get nauseous, have light-headedness, vomiting, and vertigo. These are just a few of the symptoms. I have seen numerous ENT Specialists, and they’ve determined I have Meniere’s Disease, which is another AutoImmune Disease. I have had all kinds of testing done, and to be honest, not much helps longterm. I have had about eight injections in my eardrum, to help alleviate the symptoms. I can see your eyes growing like saucers…Yes, it’s very painful. The first time I had one done, the Dr told me to turn my head, I was like What? Mike was in the corner, and told me…Look at Me!! I’m NOT suppose to swallow for fifteen minutes during that procedure. Yep, try that one. It’s hard. Plus Mike said he was surprised, the needle didn’t come out, the other side of my head. So NOT fun.
Around 2014 I started becoming super sensitive, to movement of ANY kind. That includes, flashing, blinking, spinning, objects moving, etc…My balance is OFF to the point I bump and bang into everything, and get dizzy often. I kinda resemble a drunk person, and I do NOT drink alcohol either. I’ve had countless tests, seen more specialists than I can remember the names of. They’ve determined I have Vestibular Migraine Disease, which is guess what…another AutoImmune Disease. They’re still currently trying to find a treatment, that will help me with these symptoms. I can’t enjoy theme parks like I use to. I don’t really watch much TV anymore. I do NOT enjoy driving now, and do it as little as possible. I have my own chauffeur though. I’d be lost without my husband.
Around 2015 I had two places, that came up on my hands, and a huge one on the bottom of my foot. I’ve seen several specialists for this. They have said it’s clusters of plantar warts, which is a virus, and guess what..my body can NOT fight it off. They’ve done freezing, scraping, burning, candida injections, chemotherapy injections, chemotherapy cremes, and squaric acid, just to name a few. NOTHING has worked. They finally cut out the places on both of my hands, and it took over five months to heal…seriously! The poor dermatologist was getting so frustrated, she said she’s done all she could for me, and sent me to another. He refused to even touch it, and sent me to someone else. This Dr said he was afraid it was Cancerous, since all other treatment has failed. He did a biopsy, and it came back non cancerous, which is good news, however they don’t want to cut it out, because I do NOT heal, due to my immune system. This is still a work in process, and I do NOT know what else they can try.
I keep getting sinus infections, ear infections, bronchitis, and upper respiratory infections, due to my inner ear issues and allergies. I won’t bore you with ALL I’m allergic to. I will put it this way, I get told ALL the time, I should live in a bubble. Needless to Say, after countless rounds of antibiotics of different varieties, I finally had to have Sinus surgery back in March 2017. It ONLY took about four hours to perform. I thought it was gonna be an easy surgery. I’ve ONLY had twelve surgery’s, and NO I am NOT kidding. Most of them are female/bladder related. My point being, Sinus surgery is NOT an easy one, just so you know.
Ok Friends, that about sums me up. I’m going to be honest, the ONLY way I can get through these issues, is having my faith grounded in God. I lean on him to see me through, all the ups and downs in my life. If it wasn’t for God’s grace, I’d be so lost. I couldn’t make it without him. Could God take these things from me…..Yes, he can, but he has his reasons for ALL things. I truly feel in my heart, that God is using “My Issues” for his Glory, and for my good. If life was easy ALL the time, we wouldn’t grow. We tend to learn more, in the darkest of times. If my “Journey” helps others, then I see it as gain. Look at the suffering of Paul and Job. Did God take their suffering away? No he didn’t! Could he? Most definitely! God see’s the Bigger Picture, where we do NOT.
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Hey Friends. Thank you for taking time out of your day, to spend a few moments in mine. As a follower of Jesus Christ, it’s important to me to share the gospel with you. I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.