Do you ever feel, that the road you’re on, is never-ending? Does it feel like, your back is against the wall, and all you see before you, is miles and miles of road? I want to give you something to cling to.
Look to the photo, I have used, in this blog posting. Keep your eyes, focused on the cross, while you’re facing, whatever road you are on. Keep in the forefront of your mind, that it won’t last forever, we are promised that.
I know what’s going through your mind right now. “Angie…You DON’T understand how LONG I’ve endured this, and you just don’t “GET IT!” Trust Me, I GET IT! I have those weak moments, of saying those same words.
And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain, for the former things are passed away. (Revelation 21:4).
This verse is such a wonderful promise to us isn’t it beloved? Just vision Heaven, in your mind, when your eye’s view Glory, for the first time. Can you see if Friends?
Can you vision, your Heavenly Father, taking you in his arms, and saying to you, “Welcome Home.” Oh, what a day that will be! Are you looking forward, to that day, as much as I am?
Think about it y’all. All of your loved one’s, who have left their earthly bodies, you’ll see again, face to face. They’ll be no more losing, your Family and Friends, cause they’ll be mo more death.
Apart from God and Jesus, I want to see ALL my loved ones, but I can’t wait to hold, my Precious Tyler, in my arms again, because 4 1/2 months, wasn’t long enough.
All the pain and suffering, we’ve endured will cease. Can you get a sense, of how amazing, that will be friends? God himself, will wipe away all tears, from our eyes. We will finally get to Thank him, for all he’s done for us. I am in AWE of what Christ did for me. Aren’t you?
I’m going to be completely honest. I am NOT depressed. I do NOT have a death wish. I am NOT suicidal. However, I want to share with you, that more and more, I am longing for that day, like never before.
You see beloved, the road I have been on, is really draining me physically. I was dreading, but also looking forward, to getting my biopsy done, on my foot this past week. I was mentally, spiritually, and physically ready. The pain of it however….Not so Much!!
Can you guess, what happened y’all? IT DIDN’T HAPPEN! The Dr I was referred to, for biopsy and treatment, walks in and introduces himself. What happened next, deflated me like a balloon, and left me defeated
He says to me, “I’m afraid I have very bad news for you. I am NOT gonna be able, to do your biopsy today, or treat you at all.” Talk about feeling like you’ve been sucker punched!!! Yes, that was me! I left his office in tears, and with all kinds of doubts.
I started voicing my opinion, on how I felt. Keeping it real folks. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! WHY DIDN’T HE LOOK AT MY CHART BEFOREHAND! WHY DID HE WASTE MY TIME! HE COULDV’E KNOWN HE COULDN’T HELP, AND HAD ME REFERRED, TO SOMEONE ELSE, THREE WEEKS SOONER! I was shattered!
My BIG mistake, I took my eyes, off the cross, and opened the door, for doubts. Once you open that door, guess who slips in, and starts whispering lies, in your ear. Satan, the father of lies! Do you think God knows what he’s doing? Guess you’re doing something wrong, and God is punishing you, isn’t he?
I shout back, NO! God is using this, for a reason, known only to him, and who am I, to question him. I know for a fact, I have grown closer, in my walk with God, during this never-ending trial. Not only is it changing OTHERS, but most importantly, it’s changing ME!
Friends if you’re having doubts, lean not on your own understanding. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6).
I know how easy it is, to see what’s only in front you. That’s our human nature. Friends, we MUST stop looking at things in that perspective. You can’t fight things in your own strength. For it is God who works in you, both to will and to work, for his good pleasure. (Philippians 2:13).
Keep your mind, heart, and eyes focused on Jesus Christ. Don’t look at it from a worldly perspective, but a look at it, from an eternal perspective. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. (Colossians 3:2).
So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed, day by day. For this light momentary affliction, is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory, beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen, but to the things, that are unseen. For the things that are seen, are transient, but the things that are unseen, are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18).
WE ARE BEING RENEWED DAILY IN THESE 4 WAYS
- I am being renewed because God’s power is manifested and glorified in my weakness.
- I am being renewed because life is flowing from my suffering.
- I am being renewed because God sustains me and he will not let me be overcome by it.
- I am being renewed because I know I will be in Heaven for eternity.
I want to share a post, that was written, on my personal Facebook timeline, from my Best Friend Maria, AKA Bestie. I know she won’t mind. See, I know her that well. She’s more like a sister to me you see.
HER POST: Angie, I really don’t have words for what you are going through. I don’t understand why you have to go through this either and it makes me sad as well as angry because I know GOD has a reason for everything. I just can’t make myself grasp a reason for this. You and I have been BESTIES for the longest time! I remember when you were there epitome of health. Now this? On top of everything else? I never would have imagined the way things have turned out for you health wise. I know, I know, I can hear you saying it: GOD has blessed you in so many ways. I realize that especially since he blessed me when he gave me you as a BESTIE. I LOVE YOU and keep you in my prayers daily.
MY RESPONSE: MY BESTIE, you bring me to tears with this post. Thank You. I honestly don’t understand it either, but God IS using it for a purpose and a reason that I may NEVER know. I’m NOT gonna lie and say that I don’t have weak moments with all this, but I MUST cling to the Promises and Faithfulness of God. It’s ALL I can do and he knows the outcome. Whatever his will for me, is what I have to hold on to. I’m hoping for the best, with the situation, with this recent issue, regarding my foot. It’s just like the song from Mercy Me, Even If you don’t, my hope is you alone. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, and I’m FOREVER Grateful for you, and our Friendship. I’d be lost with you! Try not to worry, because it just drains today’s peace.
My reason for sharing that particular timeline post, is to show you, I am far from perfect, but I am clinging to the Promises and Faithfulness of God, in my life. I hope you can as well, regardless of the road you’re on right now. Trust God, because he is Faithful. One day very soon, that road will be a distant memory. Even So Come Lord, Right Now, for your children are Homesick to spend Eternity with you.
I normally wouldn’t post photo’s like this, but I want to show vulnerability. Just in case anyone reading this, doubts what I am writing. This is my life. It’s not just empty words on a screen beloved. I’m NOT showing you these for sympathy, I want you to see what I’m writing about is TRUTH!
Your Sister in Christ
Hey Friends. Thank you for taking time out of your day, to spend a few moments in mine. As a follower of Jesus Christ, it’s important to me to share the gospel with you. I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.