God is worthy of our Worship and it should flow freely from the depths of our hearts.
Friends I want to share with you a story about what my worship pastor did during Sunday’s service. Janson said we’re gonna do things a bit different today.
He said as a Church family sometimes we get in a bit of a rut. We come to worship God but much too often we’re just doing this in a repetitive state of mind so we can check off the box so to speak.
He then said today we’re gonna go back about twenty or so years and do some oldie but goodie praise songs…The HEART of Worship music.
He then proceeds he wants to share with us the story behind the song Heart of Worship by Matt Redman.
He said the song was written in the late 1990s, born from a period of apathy within Matt’s home church and the congregation was struggling to find meaning in music.
He said that there was a dynamic missing so the pastor decided he wanted to change that. He decided to get rid of the sound system and band for a season and they gathered together with just their voices.
The pastor stated that at some point the Church had lost their way in worship, and the way to get back to the heart of worship would be to strip everything else away.
The pastor wanted to remind his church family that they needed to be producers in worship, not just consumers.
The pastor asked the congregation this question…”When you come through the doors on Sunday what are you bringing as your offering to God?”
Janson said the question initially led to some embarrassing silence but eventually people began singing and encounterd God in a fresh way.
As Janson continued the story he said that over a short period Matt’s Church slowly reintroduced the musicians and sound system. However, the church had gained a new perspective that worship is all about Jesus and him alone!
See Friends Jesus Christ wants the response from you and I to come from the depths of our souls no matter what our circumstances and settings are.
Our true Heart of Worship!
So when the music fades and all has been stripped away…That Friends is THE HEART OF OUR WORSHIP!
I also found a video on youtube that has the story and I have the link for you to click next to view it… Heart of Worship (Behind the Song with Matt Redman)
Now as I sat there and listened to our worship pastor sharing this story I felt myself under heavy conviction and I want to share with you why that is.
I LOVE God’s Sense of Humor & Timing
Just this past Saturday I remembered songs that I wrote from 2016. The sad thing is this wasn’t the first time I had written songs. My first time being when I was just a teenager.
Back then I led the choir and sang solos all the time and my hearing was still 100%. Today I have a major hearing loss and only have 15% left in my left and I have 30% gone in my right.
So, to put it bluntly, I can NOT really tell how I sound especially when there is a lot of background noise.
Now to my point
I sang these songs just ME and MY computer…NO music…NO band…etc…
I realize that these seven videos are NOT the best quality but when I shared them on my personal page three years ago I received great feedback.
So Saturday the thought to share them on my Facebook Blog page came to mind. Afterward, I was bombarded with doubts and insecurities that I shouldn’t have posted them.
Lies from Satan
- You’re gonna look stupid!
- People are gonna make fun of you!
- You need to remove them!
I almost did take them down or rather wanted to hide them from my page timeline but leave them in the video section.
See friends I was letting fear of what others may think to get in the way of what the whole point in sharing them was, to begin with. Honoring God through “WORSHIP” just ME…NO music…
Links to my songs below
Now you can understand the timing of what transpired on Sunday was like for me. I had to repent then and there and ask God to forgive me and Say “Thank You God for the reminder…you know I needed that!”
I LOVE the way God works don’t you friends?
God was NOT finished however
When Pastor Jon started his sermon I was saying “Really Lord!”
My toes were stepped on badly and if you got the impression the songs were convicting enough…You’d be wrong!
Pastor Jon started a new series today titled: OUR FREEDOM | GOD’S FORGIVENESS…Savor the Sweetness of Forgiveness
The sermon had three key points: Psalm 32:1-5
- Be captivated by the blessings of repentance and confession.
- Don’t suffer in silence.
- Acknowledge and confess your sins for forgiveness.
Please do NOT get the wrong idea
I have NOT committed adultery against my husband Mike nor do I plan or want to. I have the BEST husband EVER!
But when you read Psalm 32:1-5 you will know this is about King David and what transpired with Bathsheba. These particular verses are David bearing the weight of his shame, guilt, and regret and the consequences of his actions.
King David paid dearly for his actions both physically and spiritually.
My pastor used the metaphor of NOT changing the oil in your car…If you NEVER change the oil in your car it will eventually get filled with muck and gunk and make your engine go bad.
That TRUTH is for us too
EVERYONE has to take their trash out! Can you say OUCH!
Pastor Jon went on to say that he believes that there is NO SIN heavier than guilt and shame. We beat ourselves up over and over again for things God remembers no more don’t we beloved?
I know I do!
Which leads to the second part of being heavily convicted during Sunday’s service.
If you have read my personal testimony you are aware of my almost fifteen years abusive first marriage. If not you can read that HERE.
I have been VERY upfront with you about that time in my life…except for ONE thing. That ONE thing has kept me prisoner friends. I can understand how King David felt.
BOUND and SHACKLED!
To say I am ashamed is an understatement!
Pastor Jon gave us ten common reasons believers choose to avoid confessing sin.
- Fear of Man
- Hardness of Heart
- Minimization of Sin
- Rationalizing of Sin
- Failure to look intently in the mirror of God’s word
- We grow comfortable with unconfessed sin
Mike knows of course because I told him about it not long after we started dating. A few select others know…those closest to me.
They do NOT judge me and tell me that I am NOT to blame but to honest I am to be held accountable also regardless of the circumstances surrounding the things that transpired.
I am wanting to be FREE of this guilt and shame and God has placed within my heart the conviction to share what I know I must in order to let it go and be set FREE.
I’m going to write a short E-Book of the time in my first marriage that will be more in depth of what I went through during that time period and how God used that timeframe to mold me into the woman I am today along with my confession I know I need to make.
PLEASE keep me in your Prayers friend because this is NOT going to be easy for me. I am already in a battle in this. Satan is filling my mind with all kinds of scenarios but I want to FINALLY be FREE of this and God made that VERY CLEAR during this service.
Friends, I do NOT know what YOU are struggling with. It may be something simple and it may be something more significant that you need to confess of but I guarantee you that if you do what you know in your heart is right to do…God will Honor it!
Your Sister in Christ
Welcome! My name is Angie and I’m all “about” sharing the unconditional Love, Hope, and Salvation, that is found in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ! I’m just a nobody wanting to tell everybody about somebody…JESUS CHRIST! I write about my ups and downs, my struggles and insecurities, but above all else, I share how God brings me through it all. Let’s continue our walk with Christ together.