Have you ever been told, “Relax, God is in control”? Easier said than done, right? How can we actually relax in this idea?
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
Relax, God is in Control! This verse sounds simple and straightforward, doesn’t it?
However, I’m going to make myself completely transparent.
I find that I’m struggling to believe this completely at times with my mind, heart, and soul. It can be so difficult to say I TRUST YOU completely God when you don’t see your circumstances changing.
Let give you a little rundown.
My ears have been bothering me more so than usual lately and the last three weeks my left ear which is the worst between the two has been giving me a fit and it’s been keeping me from sleeping.
My left ear is the one I’ve had about eight injections due to Meniere’s and Vestibular issues.
I have constant pressure, ringing, and roaring, that NEVER goes away and Dr’s say after a while I won’t even notice it.
It’s been eight years and trust me, it’s hard for me to say “Relax, God is in control!” when I haven’t gotten use it!
However, for a while now I’ve been having pain that I’ve never felt before and it feels like I’m being stabbed repeatedly over and over.
It isn’t constant thank God but it brings me to tears which is rare for me because I have a very high pain tolerance.
I had one of my PA’s where I work to see how it looked and they suggested that I should see my ENT Specialist.
I made an appointment with my PCP instead because I figured I would just need antibiotics and didn’t want to drive an hour away.
Upon examination, BOTH ears were highly inflamed, red and infected.
She also said that I have a red abnormal growth that shouldn’t be there.
I told her it was probably just scarring from the injections hopefully, that’s the case so she gave me three different antibiotics and anti-inflammatory also that I’ve been taking since then.
My husband and I decided we wanted to take our grandson Gavin to the zoo this past weekend.
The pure innocent joy that I witness on his face makes me so happy as it does with ALL of my grandchildren.
I know what you’re thinking…”What’s the problem then Angie?”
I’m already having this issue with my ears and if you’ve read my health journey you are aware I have major allergies and animals our one of many things.
So let me state the obvious that a zoo is full of animals.
Consequently, I am also allergic to grass, trees, and pollen. Yep, those things surround a zoo also.
By the time we got halfway through the zoo, I started sneezing my head off and I was struggling to breathe.
Underneath my eyes were black and looked like my bags had bags on top of each other and it wasn’t pretty.
Trust me, I have pictures as proof and No I’m NOT sharing them.
See the thing is I didn’t want to let my family down especially when they’re having so much fun and I didn’t want to be Debbie downer and ask if we could leave.
In all honesty, I feel like I’m keeping them from enjoying the activities they love already.
I do NOT want to do that!
I started questioning God…Why does it have to be this way, Why can’t it be different, and Will I ever get to enjoy things the way I use to?
Take it away Lord so I can be “normal” and do “normal” things with my family, What are you trying to teach me, Haven’t I learned all you want me to by now?
The thing is, saying “Relax, God is in control!” doesn’t mean life will be easy.
The thing is God NEVER promised us we would have an easy life!
God promises that he would be with us through it all.
Trust me, if you give Satan an inch he will take a mile and Satan being the deceiver will flood my mind with doubts and all kinds of false thinking.
It started slowly and then it got louder and louder.
IF God loves you He would take ALL of your pain and suffering away, HE DOESN’T LOVE NOR CARE ABOUT YOU, OR ELSE HE WOULD, AND NOT JUST THE EAR ISSUE, BUT ALL OF IT! BUT HE HASN’T HAS HE!
Satan loves and knows how to Prey on our vulnerabilities
It can be so draining when people ask me how I’m doing.
Most of the time my reply is, I’m doing Ok or I’m alright and I try to be a positive person regardless of my circumstances because I don’t want to feel like I’m complaining when I know for a fact I could be having it much worse than I do.
My Church likes us to arrive thirty minutes prior to worship service so we can engage with our fellow brothers and sisters and they also like for us to find someone we may not recognize and have them sit with us.
It’s all about extending the same Love, that Jesus Christ has shown us.
However, I don’t want to go at that time and want to arrive just a couple of minutes prior so that way I don’t have to discuss “How I am doing!”
I know they mean well it’s just easier to dodge it altogether.
Even during service this weekend a dear Sister and Friend asked me point-blank, “How are you doing?” I looked them in the eye and replied I’m doing Ok. I think they saw right through that response but they didn’t question me.
That is so NOT the right attitude!
If I can’t be honest with my fellow brothers and sisters, that’s a huge problem.
We’re supposed to lift up and encourage one another but instead, I hide behind the facade that all is well with me instead of sharing how difficult it can be for me.
BUT don’t you just love God’s timing?
It’s never late and exactly when we need it the most.
My pastor did a sermon Sunday that regardless of our circumstances God is sovereign and he’s in control of ALL things.
Nothing in our lives catches him off guard nor does it surprise him for God sees the beginning, middle, and the end and knows how we will react.
God allows things to come into our lives to mold and form us into the likeness of his son. We may not understand, agree, or like it necessarily but he’s using these things for a reason.
While we are in seasons of difficulty how we handle them can change those around us by watching how we react to the circumstances.
God wants us to rely on Him!
Sadly, most often we run to other things and other people for encouragement instead of running to God!
Many times God will not change our circumstances so we are forced to change and we won’t move until God makes us move.
I must agree with that because it’s in those hardest of times I’ve grown the most and I want to be able to say no matter my circumstance is that it is well with me!
When I start to feel down and discouraged I need to remind myself of these truths
What little I go through, is NOTHING in comparison, to what Jesus Christ endured for me!
The Apostle Paul suffered tremendously, but he kept the faith knowing he would receive Heaven as his prize!
You know Job’s story of loss and great pain but it was for his good and God’s glory!
Relax, God is in control!
Don’t be afraid to voice what you’re truly feeling. Don’t play the…I am fine, I am Ok, I am alright and when that isn’t true.
First and foremost, run to your Heavenly Father and share with him how you feel because he already knows anyway but God longs for us to speak with him.
Secondly, don’t be afraid to share with your fellow brothers and sisters and be honest that you’re struggling and need their help and to lift you up and Pray for you.
I will Pray for you and you can Pray for me too because that’s why I have this Blog and I want to be real, even when it’s hard, even when it hurts, and even if it shows I am far from perfect. That’s being real.
IN ALL THINGS
God is Sovereign, God is Good, God is OVER ALL THINGS, that comes my way!
Let this song speak Truth to you today Friends.
Father God, Please help us to see, that we need to rely on one another when we’re feeling weak and weary. Help us know that it’s Ok to admit when we need help, instead of trying to carry that burden alone. In Jesus Name.
My name is Angie and I’m all “about” sharing the unconditional Love, Hope, Restoration, and Salvation, that is found in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I write about where my life was before accepting Christ Jesus as my Savior and my journey now as I walk with Him daily. Thank You so much for taking time out of your day to spend a few moments in mine. If you found this post encouraging can I ask you to Please share it with someone else who may need to read it as well? You can share via the buttons below.